A word to the wise...

Why is it when you are down, frustrated, tired, and seemingly alone, that’s when God shakes you to say “Hey, did you forget something?” or “Now, you know I will take care of that.” This past year has been a struggle. I grew up being very self-reliant and accomplishing the goals I had set for myself. I have engrained in myself high work expectations and standards, and I hold others to those standards even if they do not know it. Over the past year God has been “shaking” me to get my attention and I have been fighting it. I know He is right and it is his plan, not mine. But those expectations are really hard to let go of.

I know that trials and tribulation are to make us stronger Christians, but my human-ness wants to throw a two year old tantrum about how it is not fair and ask why when things get really hard. Then I look at family and friends, to find them struggling with a lot of the same issues including those I believe to be strong Christians. I, then, begin to see what God is teaching me. It always amazes me at what God shows me and how my expectations/desires are usually so out of line with his plan.

With everything that has happened over the past year, He has provided and watched over us. His grace has never left our life.

I have come to rely heavily on the following two versus to help me not throw my two year old tantrum.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6